Tuesday, January 25, 2011


I have been MIA for months now.  I had to fly home in October to take care of my mom (who was going on hospice).  My sister came home to help too.  My mother was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in August.  She had 2/3 chemo treatments and was waiting for the tumor to shrink so she could have whipple surgery.  Unfortunately, there was a hole in her stomach and she had to stop treatment.  Because we had to stop the treatment she could no longer get the surgery.  She needed the surgery to prolong her life.  In early October the doctors gave her till Thanksgiving time to live.  I took my girls and flew home leaving my life, hubby, and everything behind to take care of my mom with my sister.  My mom was such a fighter!  She never complained once.  Pancreatic cancer is very aggressive and very painful.  After a month and a few weeks (from coming home from the hospital) she passed away. 

It was the hardest thing I have ever been through.  I can't even begin to describe what my sister and I went through, saw, and experienced.  I would go through it all again for my mom.  I would do it in a heart beat.  She was the most amazing person I have ever known.  Strong, brave, and a fighter.  I miss her a ton and am taking things day by day.  We were very close and it's hard not having her around. 

I've been back home for a little over a month.  Things are getting a little easier.  The girls keep me very busy.  It's time to get back into my life as it was before I left.  I need to get back on here and get back into the swing of things.  Just letting all of you know where I have been and that I am back.