Tuesday, January 25, 2011


I have been MIA for months now.  I had to fly home in October to take care of my mom (who was going on hospice).  My sister came home to help too.  My mother was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in August.  She had 2/3 chemo treatments and was waiting for the tumor to shrink so she could have whipple surgery.  Unfortunately, there was a hole in her stomach and she had to stop treatment.  Because we had to stop the treatment she could no longer get the surgery.  She needed the surgery to prolong her life.  In early October the doctors gave her till Thanksgiving time to live.  I took my girls and flew home leaving my life, hubby, and everything behind to take care of my mom with my sister.  My mom was such a fighter!  She never complained once.  Pancreatic cancer is very aggressive and very painful.  After a month and a few weeks (from coming home from the hospital) she passed away. 

It was the hardest thing I have ever been through.  I can't even begin to describe what my sister and I went through, saw, and experienced.  I would go through it all again for my mom.  I would do it in a heart beat.  She was the most amazing person I have ever known.  Strong, brave, and a fighter.  I miss her a ton and am taking things day by day.  We were very close and it's hard not having her around. 

I've been back home for a little over a month.  Things are getting a little easier.  The girls keep me very busy.  It's time to get back into my life as it was before I left.  I need to get back on here and get back into the swing of things.  Just letting all of you know where I have been and that I am back. 


  1. Wow, I cannot imagine. I have two small babies too so just taking care of them is enough to fill my head but if I had to deal with something like that on top of it? Check me into a mental ward.

    I hope you come to peace with her death very soon.

  2. My heart just aches for your loss. I thought about you constantly while you were away. Your mom was blessed to have you and your sister, and your girls there with her. I know that must have made her feel so happy being able to see all of you each day. I'm so glad that your sister was there to go through everything with you. You have your mom's strength, too. Even as you move on with your everyday life, you will never stop thinking about your mom. She'll always be in your heart.